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Falling in and out of love

I am a real romantic. I have always dreamed that I would meet the man of my life in a park, or at a bookstore. Maybe even at a bakery. I fell in love once. And I fell hard. It was romantic, it was love at first sight. Like in many of my favourite movies. But with great love come great expectations, great disappointments. “It’s not you, it’s me”. In that case, it was true. Yet so wrong at the same time. I fought hard. I was strong. I was there. Every day, every night, every second. I gave everything I could possibly give. Love, time, money. All of me was in that relationship. I did not think it was possible to forget myself. To lose myself. But I did. I lost my confidence, my pride, my self-esteem. My soul. At the time, it seemed worth it. In some ways, I still think it was. I realised that loving someone that much was the most altruistic gift I could offer. Yet the most destructive for …